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Sunday, March 19, 2006
i miss nel.
wouldn't it be great if you could change your name everytime you dated/went out with a new person? if that was the case, my name would've been switched so many times. but what i'm thinking is that after every falling out and when you meet someone you can potentially date, your name is changed. your name is a significant part of what makes you you. the name you had when you were with someone changes once there's a falling out. that name is just like that relationship, a part of the past. i guess you would have a new identity but you do act certain ways around certain people. how convenient it would be to have a new name to define that period in your life when you're a certain type of person going out with a particular significant other. then when everything is said and done, put everything in the past, even your name. never to be said again, only from people you knew during that time period.
it was awesome that you changed the name you go by from the one in hs, wasn't it? how does that feel? when we end, i wonder what you'll change your name to. your name in hs is joined to your significant other in hs. when i think of your old name, i think of her. funny how you notice after how long that i say your old name at particular times. very intuitive of you. you get a pat on the back for your awareness. sarcasm? think again.
scars almost never heal. the ones that do still give faint memories. sadness.
i don't have the strength to pull the arrow out of my heart.
finals week is going to be hard.
9 more days.
only close friends call me by my nickname. if someone not close to me, calls me by my nickname, it feels really really weird. when a close friend says my nickname for the first time, i feel warm inside. it's cool, my nickname's a way to tell if someone's a close friend to me or not.
alrite, that's about it. GooD DaY!
Mae 11:16 AM
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